A Letter to God

God, every night I thank you, and then ask of you

If you aren’t want to make things better

Far from the devil’s play

Please

Just forgive me and take me away

To another place, to another day

Towards the horizon flies a phoenix like a dove

Sick of being 'too much' for those whom I love

If it’s of no harm to you, take me back to your source above

It would be nice if someone else could be a bearer of glad tidings once in a while

To have positivity stacked on file

Ready to put to your service upon any trial

But, why do I care?

Don’t I wish we were just unaware -

YES! To all of it, elation, sincerity, despair

These hopes and dreams dashed into thin air

People just don’t really care

Not enough, that’s life, it is what it is, it isn’t fair

It’s not their problem, and they’ve got their own to share

‘You were placed at this delta, climbing up steep stairs

Pouring heart out into action, code, paint, body, sound, writing, all of transmutation’s affairs

Imagine if you did it for others, you’d undoubtedly kill yourself from the heart, apart it would tear’

I could create even clearer and more beauty without this pain

This understanding of my own is currently in vain

It isn’t knowledge for everyone to bare

Perhaps all of it is just a fleeting affair

Shadows come from here and there

This is darkness and silence’s lair

No one is here to hold me

God, please

Grab and take hold of my hair

This is life’s journey, alone

This longing to return back home

She doesn’t want to pick up the phone

'What’s the use anyway, near the full moon and at the conjunction

She chose to close your chapter

Let her enjoy life with blissful ignorance of your soul’s rapture

I know it hurts - lack of reciprocity accelerates injury faster

Even if she be a twin flame, which is no small factor

It wasn’t her wish to be your heart’s emancipator, nor tender captor

Let her embrace chosen lover’s bliss with happiness and laughter

Be subservient to your Lord, as well as your Master’

‘OK’ I agree without any dismay

So please Lord, just take me away

How the prairie gust whisks barrels of hay

How a warm breeze blows mud into clay

Here I am crying in the middle of the day

Whats the use of any of this I say?

I can smell the west coast rain…

Why-did you wake me up again?

It’s from الله