A Cave in the Heart

What deep sorrow and pain has caused such beautiful taverns and caves in this heart

If you only knew how much I loved you, and how much I still do(but despise that I do)still love you

If you only knew how much it hurt, if you felt that pain, but I’m sure you had to feel something much more ~

To do what you did.

When I look in your sons eyes, that hazel glint, my brothers beautiful eyes, I see a crying out for love that shakes the rockies at their base - and where were you all this time?

Crying in resentment, at your own state of affairs and what a fool you were? 

How traumatized of a soul you must be, if only I could give you a hug and make you feel seen, loved, and understood

Maybe things could have been better, alas, maybe - is its own treasure

It’s from الله