Shadows

Integrating spirituality and psychology can create a strong tension within us, especially when both are undergoing growing pains, with gaps in different areas.

Things that we’ve covered up subconsciously in order to protect ourselves from the grief and pain they’ve caused in secret has created questions around the self that are emotionally difficult to deal with, and overcome. There is fear there. It exemplifies a deep level of insecurity that is often masked by achievements, accomplishments, status, and ego coddling.

Some examples of these tough questions that are not fun to explore:

Did I manifest the things that happened in childhood/teenage years, as I’ve done in adulthood? Good and Bad.

At a certain point I began to have agency, of my thoughts at least. Just how powerful were they? Am I a tainted soul from the jump? Is hell my destiny?

It may sound slightly ridiculous but these thoughts are more frequent than commonly appreciated.

Reconciling the finite past with the uncertainty of the future. Anxiety around what my truth really is. Connecting the dots looking back it seems stranger than fiction.

But…

There is a candle within that was placed from a treasure beyond this realm, that no one can put out. Not even me. It’s there underneath everything. It always has been there, and always will be.

It’s from الله